i have not been this happy ever everthing is goin fantasic ]
i have great friends who are always there for me and radomly stop by just to hang out or to make sure im ok when im sad
i have amazingly cool rents right now who let me run free and do what i want with little to no supervison i have been alound to hang out with friends more(till 11 at night) and have been alound to have them stay here till midnight or later
i have a WOUNDERFUL boyfriend who is everything ive wanted hes nice and conciderent and i truely feel like he likes me everytime he holds me/ im with him i forget about all the bad..i couldnt ask for anyone else
just the other day he made his friends stop at my house so so he could see me and give me a hug and tell me sorry i loved that i got to spend time with him the other day at zachs house only from 930-1130 but it was still wounderful i still cant get over it hes so nice ot me i know he fucked some ppl over in the past but that was then
my life seems perfect now way better then it ever was right now id the time all those songs are written about the fun times and hanging out with friends this is what we live for this moment
MY FRIENDS ARE GREAT: WES, ZACH, SEAN, MATT,JEREMY,RYAN ANI JASON,AJ,ASHLEE i love you all
AND MY BOYFRIEND I LOVE HIM:ABRAM
i am being an internet junky lately so im updateing AGAIN
i fuckin hate ppl they betray u and think that there SO much better then you
im sick of ppl acting like that around me EVERYONE is doin it lately
i walked down at the park today for a hour just to get my head straight
it didnt work
GOD I FEEL SO EMPTY so HOLLOW
I DONT LIKE BEING BETRAYED
i gusse this is kinda what i did to my friends LAIDBOR day weekend
i deserve it so i should just stop complain but i cant it releaves stress in a way
"lets get these teen hearts beating faster...FASTER
ok im still bored
i hate my friends right now i feel betrayed
they never talk anymore they are more wraped up in there signifigant other
the only time they talk i when the need help
i hope they dont read this
they hurt me
they are not really my friends maybe
or maybe im not importnat to them
or maybe i am just to fuckin annoying for them
maybe there to busy complaining about not getting hj or bj
maybe we all just suck
wow to think the last time i wrote in this everything was ok. i was all happy to have gotten flowers and life was simple
NOW 2 monthsish later michael and i brook up(9 month 27) y did we break up..o guse im a whore and cheated on him OPPS
tennis went welll
but everything sucks now it just does im so sick and tired of everything like u wouldnt believe why is everone sooo fuckin happy and everytime i try to be happy ppl fuckin ruin it
all im doing is complaining so i need to stfu
i shouldnt have typed this now im mad at myself
never though i would this much but i do I WOULD RATHER LIVE IN A BOX IN GERMANY THEN THE WHORLD BIGGEST MANSIN HERE. i was looking at pictures today of bavaria( region of germany) and boy do i miss it i want to be back there so bad the only other place in the world i would settle for if i couldnt live there would be warped tour and thats it i miss it so bad its were i got cofindence and became independant its were i had a baby brother and sister its were i first drank it where i went rock climping it were i got to be on a militay base its were i felt free!
it was my home. its were my heart is its were my dreams take me
its beautiful
havent updtaed in a while heres what happend
one tennis thingy i played with hilleray(cheak out ani blog for better infor)
AND
I GOT FLOWERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but now im mad at him(as the hole bull shit goes lmao)
josh doesnt look like a "cool" band person but either did tommy lee so who knows
one day we may find josh in one of the coolest biggest bands ever
for something i didnt think i would get though one day i sure have stucked with it for a while YEP 9 months
my wonderful careing boyfriend and i have lasted nine months(the most important number to me) its weird cause i thought i was goin to break up with him after day one but hell ive wasted(jk) all this time y not see how much i can take
dont know how much longer we will last but hopefuly a while
